Its a new year.
I am so glad 2012 is over and as I viewed my Facebook news feed, I wasn't alone in that feeling. Twenty Twelve was a tough year for so many and I'm thankful for the hope we have in a "clean slate". With the anticipation of a new year the pressing need to create new goals and resolutions is strong. Is that because I don't want to repeat the mistakes from the previous year? Possibly. It has taken me years to ignore the potential guilt of failure that creeps in when I sit and ponder the upcoming year. I can get so frozen with the idea that I may not complete a goal that I will leave it off my list. Lame. Setting goals is moving forward.
If I achieve the goal, awesome.
If I fail, I get to learn from it and grow.
Last year, I kicked off the year with choosing a "word of the year". Rather, the word chose me. I signed up for a class with Ali Edwards and had every intention of dedicating myself to this One Little Word (OLW) project. I stuck with it for about 3 months. A prime example of jumping into the new year with goals and dreams of making the next 365 days even better than the last. No, I did not continue my classes with Ali but, my word stuck with me throughout the year. I was mad at myself for not being able to follow through with the class but, I realized later in the year that it wasn't about filling in pages of a journal or documenting my journey with my OLW. It was about letting that word shape my days, my motives, and my heart. My word for last year was CHERISH.
The one who gets wisdom loves life; the one who cherishes understanding will soon prosper.
My last year was full of learning. Learning to love myself, love those around me better, and love the life I have been given. The word cherish became a huge part of my vocabulary in 2012. I wasn't planning on doing OLW again but, a word has been speaking to me the last couple of months and I can't ignore it. Another word has chosen me and it scares me a little, my word is BOLD.
The verse I have chosen is Ephesians 3:12:
Because of Christ and our faith in him, we can now come boldly and confidently into God’s presence.
Boldness does not come naturally for me so we'll see what God has in store. Having more boldness to come before my King doesn't scare me, it excites me. I know the Creator of the World continues to shape me into this human being that can be used to better her world and that scares me. He will stretch my heart and mind to be more like his but, not all at once, whew. I will be moved out of my comfort bubble but, He loves me and I am cherished. I can do anything knowing I've got a great big God standing at my side ready to pick me up when needed, ready to step aside to let me try it "my way" and loving me all the way through it all.
I've already begun my journey into being more bold by changing my hair... the outward changes are much easier than the inward ones, don't judge me. Its the inward changes that require prayer, time, and patience. If only it was just about changing my hair color.
My prayer and focus heading into Twenty Thirteen is that I would find boldness within my soul and bring it to the surface of my everyday life.
I would love to hear your thoughts for the new year!